Bootcamp - Days 35 and 36

Yesterday ended up as a good day, it didnt start off that way though. We did go to the gym yesterday and had a nice cardio work out ... but the shakes really started to get to me. I started getting ditzy ... and yes more so than usual! I found by the end of the day I couldnt concentrate and I really did have diet brain, I would think about something and two seconds later the thought was gone! Couldnt even hold intelligent conversations. My plan was to have a shake for breakfast/lunch as I was meeting some girlfriends for my "last supper". By lunchtime I decided I would go back to my old faithful - chicken and salad which I did. Dinner last night was lovely, there were 8 of us - I asked for the panfried fish to be grilled and the sauteed spinach to be replaced with a green salad (dressing on the side) and to leave the potatoes out and they were more than obliging - and the food was lovely! We went to The Brewery Bar, so if you are looking for somewhere in Wellington that aims to please ... these guys are it! Thankfully it wasnt a late night - home just after 9:30pm.

Breakfast - chocolate shake (with water not milk), apple
Lunch - chicken, salad, 50gms raw cashews, pear
Dinner - grilled monk fish, salsa, green salad
Exercise - 40 minutes cardio treadmill
Water - 4ltrs

So on to today ... I weighed on my home scales - lost 800gms taking me down to 106.2kgs. We also went to the gym this morning - did some different stuff for my cardio and worked out for 40 minutes. Got to work and made the decision that the shakes werent my thing and had my yoghurt and cereal for breakfast. So why arent they my thing ... well I've just done the sums and the shakes are three times higher in kilojoules and four times higher in sugar than my standard yoghurt/cereal breakfast!!!!!!!!! *fark!* and I worked out that my standard day of yoghurt cereal breakfast, chicken salad lunch, fish salad dinner plus fruit snacks and cashews was the same amount of kilojoules as two shakes and a protein/vegetable meal but only a quarter of the sugar! Now after doing metabolic typing, I know that my body processes protein better than it does sugar, so I should have done my homework a bit smarter and realised that the shakes were too high in sugar for my body to process. Yes I lost weight, but I believe I would have lost more weight if I stuck to my original diet plan. Hindsight is a fine thing, a good lesson for me to learn from though - DONT LET PRESSURE AND DESPERATION MAKE ME DO STOOPID THINGS! *note to self*

I emailed the surgery and told them my latest weight and off I went to a mgmt workshop feeling very pleased with myself. When I got back to my desk, there was an email from Leanne, the surgeons wife who is also the surgical nurse. I read her email which was absolutely lovely and had a major meltdown. It read:

Firstly congratulations on making the goal weight! I knew you could do it. Thanks also for your updates, the countdown is nearly over and your big day is nearly here. I hope that your excitement is still floating around and enough to pull you back in when those nervous moments take away all rational thoughts. We look forward to seeing you on Monday and will take excellent care of you. I cant wait to see your results and hope that this is everything you have hoped for.

I can imagine the next couple of days will be tough, I know that havnig surgery is a huge step and that the emotions which have lead you to this point run far deeper for you personally than what most people could ever imagine. I know that surgery will change you on a physical sense, but it will help you greatly in an emotional sense also. It is a transition which makes our work so rewarding and I know the ramifications of having this done will reward you personally and I cant wait to see that extra sparkle in your eyes at your long term follow up. I'm here if you need me and try to think about the good times ahead rather than the big day itself (hard I know). See you Monday with warm regards, Leanne.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Thankfully my wonderful friend at work had lunch with me and we talked about the surgery and I completely flipped out LOL So I came home early - I couldnt stop crying ... I'm pathetic! Bawled walking down to the train station, bawled on the train, bawled walking home LOL god knows what people must have thought. The stupid thing is ... I dont know why I was bawling - I just felt completely overwhelmed with EVERYTHING!

And then when I got home there was a wonderful parcel sitting on my doorstep from a wonderful friend who made me a beautiful handmade card and sent me some smellies and a book to "assist in my recovery" ... bless her heart - her timing couldnt have been more perfect!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA It stopped me crying! LOL

I got changed and took Jack out for a walk ... I decided it was my way of destressing - as we walked down the road it started raining, but I didnt turn around and come home, I did a different route which was a little bit closer to home in case it started absolutely pissing down! LOL - thankfully it didnt! Got home and ran the bath. I soaked for about 40 minutes. It was wonderful. I'm still highly strung, highly emotional and I have no idea what will set me off next!

It made me realise how I have so many wonderful special people in my life right now ... you know who you all are *wink* Speaking of wonderful people ... Rachel has just popped in and dropped off ... lasagne, bacon and egg pie, cottage pie and a curry mince roll ... Craig is in heaven!!!! LOL What a darling! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I think I'll be having another early night! :)

Breakfast - yoghurt and millet, LSA
Lunch - 80gms chicken and salad, 50gms raw cashews
Dinner - 180gms gurnard, 1 tsp pesto, greek salad
Water - 3ltrs
Exercise - 40mins cardio - rowing machine, arc trainer, bike, 50 min walk with Jack

MAN THAT ANNE IS IMPATIENT! LMAO!