End of the Week *again*

**Update**

Spoke to Dr Masters, he's not happy with the lack of progress on the wound so sent me off to a lab for a wound swab. Gross information about to follow: the nurses basically put a large cotton bud into my wound, twirled it around a few times to cover it in creamy pus and said ... ooh that looks like it needs a drain (from their humble nurses medical opinion) LOL IT DID NOT HURT - I'm still quite numb in the whole wound area - again its just a bit gross. Bet that made your sphincter contract didnt it? LMAO! So Dr Masters wants to see me next week and check it all out, the results of the swab will be back too ... so thanks Chris for your concern - I am on top of it - not going to let it all fall apart now.

I've got a confession though. I'm nervous ... really nervous about going back to work! Not because of what everyone will say, but because I dont know if I can handle it professionally, I have this high expectation of myself and it makes me nervous that I might not be able to meet everyone elses expectations - the stoopid part is ... I have no idea what their expectations are! I know its drivel, but I'm still a little worried about it. My job while not physical is very mental and it requires alot of mental stamina to get it right. The way my mind is working right now, I'd be lucky if I remember my password to get into the network!

Ok thats enough for today, I'm still feeling on top of the world and my body is gorgeous even with a weeping wound and I wouldnt go back for anything :D

*smooch*
Leenie

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That Sue is a bloody card isnt she? Silly girl, fancy trying to encourage me to iron LOL its really quite laughable and Craig would so know better than the buy me one.

We got Mum's new kettle yesterday and I also went to the Farmers sale ... in the "normal girls" clothes section bought three lovely tops and a gorgeous skirt for work! all at 20% off ... YIPPEE! Ok so they were a 18's or XL's but they fit me perfectly and I look hot :D lol

I have about 25 shopping volunteers at the moment and in all honesty I really dont need much to go shopping for now ... however, I need these volunteers to go out with me and help me look at different styles, materials and colours to get a bloody good idea of what I should and more importantly SHOULD NOT wear. My first expedition will be next week with my sisterinlaw to look for some work pants. I'm pretty much ok for casual gear now, I just need some decent work stuff. It's still not helping that my infected wound is still swollen and solid as and not co-operating - speaking of which I've got a call into the surgeon to give him an update on it. My antibiotics run out on Monday.

I've been very industrious these past 24 hours. Yesterday after I got home from my shop, I went through my wardrobe *again* and filled up three bags of stuff - two for the rubbish dump - cos they were literally old rubbishy things (including undies ewwwwwww) and one massive bag for charity. Stuff thats not good enough to sell on Trademe or to send to mates *winks @ Mandy* but too good to throw away - so someone will benefit from them. The last of my 22/24's have left the building - how liberating is that????????? All I have left from my "fat" days is my original Size 30 lime green cargo pants. I loved those pants when I bought them, they were so bloody tight but I thought I looked gorgeous in them. I think they might live in the back of my wardrobe forever - just as a reminder of how far I have come and somewhere I will never go to again.

The other industrious thing I have done this morning is clean up my office. Got all the paperwork sorted and the desk cleaned up - whew - didnt realise how much crap I hoard! Well its all gone for another 6 months until the desk piles up with shit again and I feel the urge to purge LOL

My sisinlaw has cleaned my house this morning and it is sparkling, the day is gorgeous out there (apart from the wind) and I'm going to head up town to do some banking chores and pick up some more wound tape from the chemist. We are going up the club tonight ... yahoo more opportunity to do the shock factor/wow thing with friends and acquaintences hehe ... dont think I will tire of that too soon *cheesy grin*