Thirsty Thursday!

Wow, thank god the end of the week is nearly here. It's been a pretty crazy week workwise - an opportunity for me to crumble in the weightloss stakes but I've stuck to my guns and tracked tracked tracked! I went a couple of points over today, but I'm ok with that, I walked Jackster this morning for just over an hour and again when I got home out we went again for 40 minutes.

I'm missing the gym! I havent been for three weeks now ... and I feel ... um ... flabby! LMAO! Of course I'm covered in flab but its just that I dont "feel" as tight and toned LOL Best I get hold of those handweights and swiss ball and get pumpin!

Watched biggest loser tonight. Whenever I see that programme I cry! I really do cry. I watch those people and I see how the realisation hits them and it breaks my heart. Been there, done that, got a few t-shirts along the way! Every single one of them once that realisation hits - question themselves ... "how did I let myself get like this?" - I asked myself that the first day I stepped on those WW scales and they broadcasted loud and clear 174.7KG!!!!!!!!!!!

God I still cringe when I read that figure. I still cringe when I see the figure of the scales now!!!! (although I havent seen them for 3 weeks thats probably whats making me cringe!) LOL

And then I think about my journey to date. The happiness, the frustration, the days of complacency, sadness but the underlying sense of pride and self satisfaction that I took that huge step over two years ago and made a commitment to myself to change my life. That's what I saw on those people's faces tonight. The horror of the original scales and getting into those skimpy outfits and revealing their bodies to the world and then at the end of the 10 days the joy, relief, shock and pride of their achievements, not just in losing the weight but learning about themselves and what they want from their lives. That is pretty cool. Those personal trainers must get a huge amount of satisfaction from their jobs.

I dont regret not doing this lifestyle change sooner, I am just relieved that I have changed and at a time in my life where I will benefit from it for many years to come.