I'm not sure what's going on but I am so unmotivated :( ... its weird because I get so fired up and when I'm doing stuff I'm supposed to I'm going great, but when I get the opportunity to slack off ... I do!
On Friday, I went to work, still blocked up so I moved my session with Bruce to next Tuesday afternoon. I'm also going to meet my new trainer, someone called Natalie, hope I click with her, if not I'll be looking for a new trainer.
Friday was such a gorgeous day! We got home, did our housework and then went and sat outside a drank a bottle of wine! I will never forgive Jo for introducing me to Banrock Station White Shiraz, that wine is just bloody gorgeous!
Why have I got this hankering for alcohol these days? It's like I'm in this serious rebellion phase of my weightloss journey - I know what I have to do, I still want to get to my 84kg but I just keep screwing it up, its so hard to stay motivated right now ... and the more pressure I put on myself to conform, the more I cheat on myself! I've got the triathlon in 3 weeks, and then we are going away camping, I can only hope my brain will settle itself down and when I get home from all that I will carry on my own little merry way. It sounds like I've talked myself out of weightloss mode doesnt it? I havent given up, quite the opposite - I'm very conscious of what I should and shouldnt be eating and 90% of the time I make the right choices - I havent spent the last two years of my life learning all these new skills to just screw it all up. I think just now where I am at is that I just dont want to engage brain to do weightloss, my brain is currently engaged to live and enjoy life through summer and maintain my loss to date. Maybe I just have to accept that for now and not punish myself for just wanting to enjoy my life. The problem is, if I keep this up for too long, its giong to be bloody hard to reengage to get to goal! ARGHHHHHHH.
On Saturday we got up early and went out for a walk with both dogs. Just got home and my cousin rang asking if we wanted to pop round for a bbq in the evening. We went to the butchers and supermarket and then headed up to Otaki for the day. Craig's family had hired a bach on the beachfront for the week and so we went up and had lunch with them and then sat on the beach for a couple of hours. I went back to childhood and spent most of the time with my neice (4yrs) and nephew (3yrs) building sandcastles, burying them in the sand and paddling in the sea with them. If I had any brains I would have taken my togs and done a sea swim in prep for my triathlon, but I'm still recovering from my cold and it probably wouldnt have been a wise decision. So last night we went round to my cousins, I drank ANOTHER bottle of wine *rolls eyes* and we caught a taxi home.
Slept in until 9:00am this morning! Walked round to my cousins place (about 30mins walk) and picked up my car LOL. These are the cousins that are lending us the sea kayak for when we go camping. OMG it is the coolest! They have life jackets too, hehe in my drunken state last night I put the lifejacket on (it fitted! WOOHOO) and did a little boogie LMAO their friends must think I'm nutso *shrug*. Craig and I are both so looking forward to our two week break - really very exciting - cant wait to just get that tent set up and park up for two wonderful weeks of sea, sun and bloody sand.
So thats it, I've just ordered the groceries. I've written my shopping list for next weeks "Girls Big Brunch Out" - I've got 14 of my girlie friends coming around for a brunch and chill out session. Hopefully the weather will be awesome and we can sit outside. Craig is cooking the bbq for us and then buggering off and leaving us to it - HE IS THE COOLEST! We are having pancakes, muesli, fresh fruit, yoghurt, crumpets, muffins, toast, chicken bacon, breakfast sausies, hashbrowns, grilled mushrooms and tomatoes all washed down with OJ, Tomatoe Juice and coffee WOOHOO ... something for everyone because not ALL of my friends are watching their weight LOL
I really need a real coffee, I wonder if I can talk Craig into taking me out for coffee .... oh darlingggggggggggggg hehe
Tonight we are popping up the club for a quick bite to eat before going up the Speedway - its the NZ Saloon Champs and Super Stocks ... I'm such a petrolhead LOL
whew big entry, lots of stuff going on right now
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Lazy Lazy
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2 comments:
yum can I come to brunch too sounds delish. Soundslike plans foryour trip are coming along great-boogie in alife jacket soundsvery safe to me.
Gees woman - the menu for brunch sounds amazing! I am drawling already! LOL
I think you and Craig both deserve the break away - sounds so beautiful - sand, sea and sun... ahhhh bliss!
Hope you have fun at the Stockcars - haven't really gotten up there much this season for one reason or another. Didn't realise they were on tonight but can't see us getting there either!
I was just about to call you to see if you wanted to go for a walkie... but came online first so won't call as you will be heading out the door shortly (if you haven't already gone).
Talk to you soon.
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