I've got stalkers!

OH MY GOD

Are you stalking me? LMAO! I've had a few comments left lately by "anonymous" now come on dont be shy, leave your name! and if you havent left a message, leave me one and let me know you are out there ... I'm curious now! LOL

Especially the person who works with me ... I know a couple of my workmates read my journal but hmmmmm sounds like there might be someone else out there, otherwise send me an email at work LOL There is only one Helena that works for us!

Incredible eh? It took me 2 years to open my journal publicly and now I'm wondering who is reading my dribble!

For all the newbies that are um ... reading about me ... I'll be straight up front now ... I dont care if I offend you ... cos this journal isnt about you, its about me! and that isnt vanity speaking - this is my avenue to note things down so that I can capture the moment so to speak.

I write this journal for me, so that when I have a bad, sad, mad day I can go back and look at some of the things I've got up to over the last couple of years and put the big picture back into mental state. Sometimes I forget where I have come from, its usually when I get compliments from people that I realise oh yeah thats right ... I was much fatter, unhealthy and living on borrowed time probably the last time they saw me!

I love going back and reading my Abel Tasman adventure, or my triathlon adventure or some of my weight loss memorable moments like self revelations or my very first entry that still brings a tear to my eye every time ...

hehe I just read my first "exercise" entry ... baby steps it started with and now this girl tramps national parks, competes in duathlons, triathlons and a couple of 10km walks, she bike rides, she swims, SHE SKATES ... did I mention my skating achievements *GIGGLE*

ok ... so you get the picture ... welcome to my journal, I hope you find something you can relate with and if you cant well thats just too bad, I'm sure there are 50,000 other blogs out there that you can read! *smile*

right anyway enough about you ... back to ME

I had the shittiest nights sleep last night, I woke up around 2:00am, then I got up to pee at 2:30pm and I was still awake at 4:15am. I had a bit of a crick in my neck and so I got up and had a nurofen, then the dogs decided they wanted to come play arghhhhhhhhhhh. Finally dropped off to sleep around 4:30 then Calais decides she wants out ... back into bed drop off to sleep and the alarm goes off at 5 *tears*, so I let her back in and go back to sleep until the alarm went off again at 6! What a bloody disaster that was. I think it was because I've got so much rushing around in my peewee brain right now ... mostly work ... I mean - what the hell is that all about, how dare it overtake my life. So tonight I might just read a book or a mag or something that will switch my brain off overload and hopefully I'll go out like a light!

Food has been great today, water ok and because I missed my morning walk I came home after work and took Jack out for 45 mins. I was ready to strangle him by the time I got home ... he must have pissed on every second tree, lampost, bush and blade of grass. Obviously thats where the say "just pissing around" = "dawdling" came from?