Bit by bit

I'm stoked, had my weigh in with Hamish this morning and recorded a loss of 2.7kg YEEEEEEEEFREAKINHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA - thats 14kgs in 15 weeks - 1 gain, 1 stay the same, the rest losses. We also took my measurements and I've dropped 55cms all over - the biggest loss of 10cms around my shoulders, 8 off my boobs (bugger it) and 7 off my waist - even managed 3 off my neck so there ya have it ... I've definately down sized, explains why heaps of people have been commenting lately - even Hamish said he could see that I was shrinking LOL

Poor bugger I dont think he knew what hit him ... we'd just started my workout, I'd done some walking lunges with a powerbag on my back, did some bose ball oblique stretches and then he pushed me into 30 bose ball side step jumps and at the end of it ... I abruptly declared I needed to sit down before I fainted or threw up LOL so I sat down and then promptly started CRYING!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG I was so embarrassed it made me hyperventilate and cry in heaving great sobs ... *giggle* he says to me ... Helena whats wrongggggggggg???????? and through my heaving sobs I said I feel hopeless cos I cant do this stuffffffff WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ... as Rachel politely told me in an email during the day ... I'm a sooky lala LMFAO!

So once I composed myself I did some more walking lunges but crashed out again when I tried to do some single leg deadlifts with the powerbag ... I couldnt balance and it was just fucking awful. The harder I tried to do the exercises the worse my balance became and the more I became unbalanced the more frustrated I got until the point I started bawling again ... FOR FUCKSSSSSSSSSSS SAKE PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER HELENA mentally I was screaming at myself.

So we put it down to just my body telling me enough is enough, its still in recovery mode from illness and I was capable of doing this stuff, just not today was all. I was still emotional going through the shower afterwards and then it dawned on me ... I'm premenstrual - due next week. I was telling a mate at work about it and I was just about in tears telling her - I'm fucking hopeless at the moment. I think it was just the whole combination of recovering, stress (busy time at work), excitement (promotion + great loss this week) and being premenstrual. I mean its quite funny when I think about it now ... but omg how awful for the poor guy LOL

I was actually thinking about my premenstrual state, I've noticed I've been like this (emotional the week before I'm due) since January this year. I've never noticed it before and I'm wondering if its because I've actually managed to get my body into its normal natural state through my metabolic typing diet that this is how I naturally am now. Without the processed food (additives, preservatives etc) my body is actually functioning how its meant to. Just a theory, but hey I'm sure I was never this bad. I dont get moody or angry, I just get emotional - LOL and find it really difficult to deal with things close to my heart. It's like when I had my appointment with the surgeon back in February, my original appointment was moved out by a week and I was so glad, because the first week I was premenstrual and I was getting so uptight about the appointment that I was wondering how I was going to hold it together long enough to get through it without the surgeon thinking I was an emotional wreck! By the time I saw him the following week I was back to normal and fine with the whole appointment without a tear in sight! .... weird.

Anyway - I wanted to write about that incase I want to come back to this post in the future and see if the patterns keep reemerging.

Thanks for all your comments guys, much appreciated and welcome on board Nic and Lynise - you are very kind with your words - you are more than welcome to stick around *cheesey smile*

I'm putting the great loss this fortnight down to my water drinking. Last week while I was unwell I did no exercise remember, but I still ate well and stuck to my diet plans. I'm picking the water had a huge part to play in the 2.7 result. Let's try that again for next week.